so it's official

so it's official ... i am a florida state university alum! graduation was yesterday and it was beautiful. it couldn't have been anymore perfect. my family was unbelievable. they were so supportive throughout the entire 4 years and they continue now to be there for me through thick and thin. ... especially since i start grad school classes on January 4th. 


i still have to go retake the GRE... hopefully third time is a charm. tomorrow i am MAKING myself get up and go somewhere to study. maybe borders or barnes and nobles.... panera? who knows. i need to get cracking and really FIGHT for what i want. 


i think the last 2 times i took it my heart and my mind were not on the same page. i wanted a good score for all the right reasons..... to prove to others i could do it, to prove that i was worth my current job position, etc. but now it's for me. i know i need this good score so I CAN ACHIEVE the dream that GOD has sent out for me. 


there's a lot of messages that GOD has been sending me over the past LONG year. 
1. To take care of myself. I've let myself go because "i don't care" but in fact I do care and feeling comfortable in my own skin is extremely important. 
2. To read more. I've been putting off reading these 4 books that I should have completed years ago. 
3. To cook more. I have been frivolously spending money on food for the past 2 years when I am completely capable of cooking meals and I actually think about the food I could have cooked when I am eating food that isn't good for me. 
4. To journal more. I need to pick up a pen and paper and just write everything down. 
5. TO ENGULF MYSELF IN GODS WORD DAILY. Everyday before I lay my head to sleep I think about the things I didn't accomplish that day. The first thing I think about is not reading my bible and watching Law and Order: SVU instead. I know I shouldn't put it off any longer, but come JANUARY 1ST my AMAZING church (thefellowshipofthehills.org) will be starting a Radical Experiment including reading through the bible in one year. This is exactly the motivation I needed. 


There are a lot of things I should have accomplished by now. But this is the time to step it up. I complain about Mark Sanchez, THE HOTTEST JETS QUARTERBACK, being a pansy and not meeting his full potential ... but I am wasting time as well. I have this attainable vision of who I could be and i am ABSOLUTELY in love with it. I just need to put on my big girl shoes and follow through. This winter break will be my chance to get everything in order. .... for once I am going to follow through, because I have a MARVELOUS GOD on my side and the most magnificent MOTHER and family.