I have had these terrible chains weighing me down the past couple of weeks. It's the chains of approval. I normally don't possess this chains, but something about being in my new position and being back in tally has caused this.
These chains have been holding me back from being the real me. I can't keep looking from the approval and trust from others. It's like the saying, "when you're looking for it it's never going to come". Well that's how I feel. I have been too worried about the whole transition at work from supervisor to graduate assistant and paranoid that everyone is going to hate me or not respect me. But I feel like thinking about it too much causes this paranoia way more.
If I just be me then maybe things will pan out the way it should. And if it doesn't, oh well. I am going to be best foot forward and put my whole heart into this position. But this heart is guarded from petty gossip, opinions, and the such.
I am not here to try and please everybody.
My main priorities right now are the following:
1. To excel at the task that has God has placed in front of me and do it to glorify him.
2. To prove to myself that I deserved and was offered this position for a reason.
3. To gain as much as experience as possible about every aspect of this position and the job it has to offer.
4. GET MY EDUCATION :)
If I don't break these chains they are going to keep wearing me out and questioning who I am, why I am, and if I am good enough for the task at hand. That's not how someone should live their life.
I know I am capable of great things because God has a path that is leading to treasure in heaven.
I'm excited for this new mindset. I hope that God continues to place it on my heart.
Goodnight. God Bless.
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